...Memories still haunt as if it just happen yesterday...

Till now I am still haunted by memories. I dream of the times where I become “crazy.” Seriously I did not expect that it will haunt me like this; I really did not expect that the impact will be so great. Those bad dreams still make me tear in the middle of the night because I see myself cry so hard and bad in my dreams; it send a chill down my spine. Much as I wanted to let go but the dreams just continue to haunt me; keep reminding me of the hurts I gone through as though it happen just yesterday. I do not think I am crazy now because that is not my focus anymore but why did the dreams keep haunting me and reminding me. These dreams just don't make my day.

Will i ever recover? Seriously i don't know; The whole espisode is so dark and scary. To think of it now still makes me tear and cry. When will this stop haunting me? When will i feel less painful? When will i be braver and really move on? When will my wound heal? There are so many when; yet i do not have an answer for it. The only thing is to let natural take its course, let time makes the scars less visible and eventually heal.

Year 2007 is ending soon and I will have a great end this year. Will be having the 1st family Christmas party this year and will be going to Malaysia on the last few days of 2007. Let me think of what I would be blogging to close for the year 2007 and my new hopes for 2008.

So excited for the upcoming year 2008! How about you?

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