An entry to my dearest darling-victor

I started on a novel today named “Where rainbow end.” I read it on my way to work in the bus- I take private bus to work nowadays which only cost $1.50 and I will get to sit. Although is only that 45 minutes of reading, I feel so much as I read along. I was so touched and almost cried many times.

This story is about two good friends, very close friends; male and female, who get separated along the way. I only read the starting, where what they do in school, the many outings they have and the phone calls they used to chat till the wee of the morning. It kind of reminds me on the days where I do these things with my good friend but along the way we are not even in contact now. The silly notes we send to each other everyday in class. I was touched at the moment they were really separated into each world.

In here, I just want to delicate this entry to Victor; my always darling:

Dear Darling,

How have you been lately? Ever since you started working, it is really very tough to get you. I really hope everything is fine at your side; at least more ups then downs. I always tell you, you know who to call if you need someone but I never get that call from you. Sadly it always looks like you don’t need me. I am not moaning how you are doing, I am just trying to tell you how much I miss you. Its so depressing whenever I have to figure out what’s on your end.

The last things I would want is in a few years’ time if my name ever comes up, you say “Hannah. Now there’s a name I haven’t heard for ages. We used to be best of friends. I wonder what she’s doing now; I haven’t seen or thought of hers for many years.

Well you might think that I think too much but is because I value our friendship so much that I decided to write this entry. Anyway, my point is, I don’t want to be one of those easily forgotten people, so important at the time, so special, so influential and so treasured, yet years later just a vague face and a distant memory. I want us to be best friends for this life at least. Thus I will not stop trying in this friendship even if you find me a nuisance

You once told me that I am quite a special friend that never gives up on you but I also want to tell you how special you are in my heart. I never forget the sunflower you bring to cheer me up, the words you used to cheer me up when I am down, the company and comfort you provided me when I am crying and out of sense. I also never forget the “silly” things we do in Conrad like sending angry messages, taking MCs and chat till the wee of the next day, smoking break even we are of different department and shifts and the endless of supper in Yishun and Bedok as well as the endless ktvs. Even when we were in OCBC times, I will never forget how much fun we have when we are pair together to serve Chinese banquets, the long chats we always have in the dinner rooms, having meals together during breaks and of course doing the Christmas decorations together

Hey, I personally have encountered the fact that I was so close and important with someone but yet it becomes a vague memory, years later. These encounters are with Shatec friends and school mates as well. Thus, I really do not want you to be part of this memory I have- Well, just hate the fact I will lose you.

Darling, thank you for being part of my life- without you, things are so different in my life without you. Hannah

2:17 PM ·