Hannah is my name and it simply means
......FULL OF GRACE......
Love to bring lots of smile and love to everyone around with sincerity.
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Tuesday, January 11, 2011
SoW iN tEaRs ReAp In TeArS...
From last year till now, i have been sowing in tears and reaping in tears.. I often asked God, God when will my reaping in joy comes?
I used to have an agent, I invested in him, trained him and yet he turn his back against me.. Sometime money can let others see the other clearly.. I am very sure he "cheated!" What can i do right? Blame it on myself to have trusted him wrongly. The Lord will deals with him...
He will say i only came out the money and did nothing; he didn't see that i am teaching him how to fish instead of giving him fish. The partnership he wants is to "work" with him, help him solve whatever he can't.. My term of partnership is to train him to do it himself so that if i day he break off the partnership, he can still be independent. He don't see it that way.
Come on, its only that $1600 that you are talking about.. Do you really need to do it?
I used to have an agent, I invested in him, trained him and yet he turn his back against me.. Sometime money can let others see the other clearly.. I am very sure he "cheated!" What can i do right? Blame it on myself to have trusted him wrongly. The Lord will deals with him...
He will say i only came out the money and did nothing; he didn't see that i am teaching him how to fish instead of giving him fish. The partnership he wants is to "work" with him, help him solve whatever he can't.. My term of partnership is to train him to do it himself so that if i day he break off the partnership, he can still be independent. He don't see it that way.
Come on, its only that $1600 that you are talking about.. Do you really need to do it?
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
2011 my greatest year yet!
I learned of a news yesterday... He is married... Happily married i guess.. I start to question how come the one who doesn't appreciate love can be so happily married? Have I move on? This question has been in my head for the past 48 hours.
My answer? Yes and No. Yes- of course i don't have any more feeling for him; in fact when i see it, i gave him my blessing. No- wounds are still as fresh as 3 years ago. Times flies isn't it? It has already been a good whopping 3 years. I guess i must have chosse to keep looking at the scar caused by the wounds.
Shall really get out of that topic... This year, I have some new resolutions.. First one, is to get my back to recover at least 50%. Now i am at about 30%. In year 2010, my health took a bad turn after accident. I thank God i am able to walk right now. Thinking back on the months that left me lying in bed for months is a little scary. Number 2, i really need to stable my finances. My huge medical bills are pressing on me, plus daily spending, work related expenes and etc... I am on a high red now.. Really need to work on that. Last but not least, i am going to Bible school next year.. Yes to be more spritual, peace, joy and laughter- something that went so far away from me as years goes by.
Bringing that to my closure, i can't remember the times when i really smile because there is joy in me. Most of the time is because i need to. For some reason i drop more tears these few years. In short, learning contentment is my greatest resolution in 2011! Hopefully it can bring closure to my espisode!
My answer? Yes and No. Yes- of course i don't have any more feeling for him; in fact when i see it, i gave him my blessing. No- wounds are still as fresh as 3 years ago. Times flies isn't it? It has already been a good whopping 3 years. I guess i must have chosse to keep looking at the scar caused by the wounds.
Shall really get out of that topic... This year, I have some new resolutions.. First one, is to get my back to recover at least 50%. Now i am at about 30%. In year 2010, my health took a bad turn after accident. I thank God i am able to walk right now. Thinking back on the months that left me lying in bed for months is a little scary. Number 2, i really need to stable my finances. My huge medical bills are pressing on me, plus daily spending, work related expenes and etc... I am on a high red now.. Really need to work on that. Last but not least, i am going to Bible school next year.. Yes to be more spritual, peace, joy and laughter- something that went so far away from me as years goes by.
Bringing that to my closure, i can't remember the times when i really smile because there is joy in me. Most of the time is because i need to. For some reason i drop more tears these few years. In short, learning contentment is my greatest resolution in 2011! Hopefully it can bring closure to my espisode!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
My miserable June- Aug
Victor recently commented on my not up to date blog.. These few months i have been to0 miserable to even update my blog. These are the several mishaps:
(1) Car Flooding
Experience my first car flooding in end of june- Thank goodness, nothing went very wrong; no repairs needed. Just need the sun...
(2) Car Flooding 2nd time
Just as i thought the car is almost dry and without smell, flood happen again the 2nd time. This time its worse than the first one. Water level till car seat. Warning lights refuse to go off even after drying. Car repair damage is abt 5K in total.
(3) Re-visit to my specialist
With all the bending for drying my car, my back start to give me problem. Need to re-visit my specialist. Given some nerve repair medicine and painkillers
(4) Got myself admitted
Just as i thought everything was ok a week later, car repair at $400 again. This time i cannot stand and felt so much pain that i have to be given 2 jabs of painkillers in A&E. Admitted for 3 days.
(5) Painkillers woes
Was given 3 types of painkillers with strong dosage. Somehow it affected me. Most of the time i am stoning, slping and crying. I got depress i feel as i cry for no apprent reason. I get emotional easily. Friends keep giving me uncessary remarks like oh.. better don't eat them but how to when i am in pain. Who likes to eat those pills and get affected like that? If i have a choice, will i choose to eat those pills. Speechless... They are not helping but add on to my miseries! I choose to be quiet and felt worse than before.
When will everything get better?
(1) Car Flooding
Experience my first car flooding in end of june- Thank goodness, nothing went very wrong; no repairs needed. Just need the sun...
(2) Car Flooding 2nd time
Just as i thought the car is almost dry and without smell, flood happen again the 2nd time. This time its worse than the first one. Water level till car seat. Warning lights refuse to go off even after drying. Car repair damage is abt 5K in total.
(3) Re-visit to my specialist
With all the bending for drying my car, my back start to give me problem. Need to re-visit my specialist. Given some nerve repair medicine and painkillers
(4) Got myself admitted
Just as i thought everything was ok a week later, car repair at $400 again. This time i cannot stand and felt so much pain that i have to be given 2 jabs of painkillers in A&E. Admitted for 3 days.
(5) Painkillers woes
Was given 3 types of painkillers with strong dosage. Somehow it affected me. Most of the time i am stoning, slping and crying. I got depress i feel as i cry for no apprent reason. I get emotional easily. Friends keep giving me uncessary remarks like oh.. better don't eat them but how to when i am in pain. Who likes to eat those pills and get affected like that? If i have a choice, will i choose to eat those pills. Speechless... They are not helping but add on to my miseries! I choose to be quiet and felt worse than before.
When will everything get better?
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Balance
From Wikipedia,the defination of balance as:
(1) A point between two opposite forces that is desirable over purely one state or the other
(2)Being the point that minimizes the negatives of both
Many times, I am faced with this dilemma; to choose over friends or people who can help me in my growth. The first category will most probably be our colleague or close ones and the latter to be our boss and manager.
I remember when I was just an office girl, i have laughters and fun with my fellow colleagues or friends we call them. Then, I move on to getting ready for promotion, got to be closer to the bosses and I became like not a friend to them anymore; they no longer ask me out for supper, chats and gatherings. Just in case you think otherwise, i am still myself. In the end, bosses are still bosses, when you choose them over the other, you get your promotion and attention but when things turns out wrong, you be like alone.
Today, i am faced with the same old dilemma, only in different senario. To go along with my so-called friends or with people who are able to help me in growth for work? Somehow or rather, i feel that i am on a road on both that don't reach the shore.
I tried to strike a balance but i reckon there is no such things as really balanced!
(1) A point between two opposite forces that is desirable over purely one state or the other
(2)Being the point that minimizes the negatives of both
Many times, I am faced with this dilemma; to choose over friends or people who can help me in my growth. The first category will most probably be our colleague or close ones and the latter to be our boss and manager.
I remember when I was just an office girl, i have laughters and fun with my fellow colleagues or friends we call them. Then, I move on to getting ready for promotion, got to be closer to the bosses and I became like not a friend to them anymore; they no longer ask me out for supper, chats and gatherings. Just in case you think otherwise, i am still myself. In the end, bosses are still bosses, when you choose them over the other, you get your promotion and attention but when things turns out wrong, you be like alone.
Today, i am faced with the same old dilemma, only in different senario. To go along with my so-called friends or with people who are able to help me in growth for work? Somehow or rather, i feel that i am on a road on both that don't reach the shore.
I tried to strike a balance but i reckon there is no such things as really balanced!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
...New Facelift...
Its already 2010.. Just realized that i have not been posting frequently in 2008 & 2009.
Took the effort to give this blog a new facelift today and it took me a whopping 4hrs to do it. Though is through template but still have to do adjustment to all the widths and length to suit my liking! In addition, i added lyrics and music to my blog!!! I am left with Cbox which i do not dare to input for fear nobody writes on them! Haha..
Anyway, do look forward to my regular updates soon!
Took the effort to give this blog a new facelift today and it took me a whopping 4hrs to do it. Though is through template but still have to do adjustment to all the widths and length to suit my liking! In addition, i added lyrics and music to my blog!!! I am left with Cbox which i do not dare to input for fear nobody writes on them! Haha..
Anyway, do look forward to my regular updates soon!
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
...A year of lost "friends"...
They were once so close to me and perhaps even being a part of me; without them, it also wouldn't be the current me now but this year everything seems so far.. When we graduate and step into our own world, does it means that it is the end of the friendship or is it as we always claim that even though we hardly meet but our heart are still with one another?
This claim seems so real but yet unreal as well? Does this claim act as a consolation to make us feel better for spending less time and effort to retain the friendship? This claim is a thin line in my heart..
The one who used to go to school with me everyday, relocate to Thailand to be with her boyfriend recently.. Got the news only when she was leaving; didn't manage to say goodbye to her.. Isn't it an irony? we were once so close and yet didn't even know that she is relocating.. 6 years ago, we take the same bus to school and back home as well.. Every morning, she will text me to let me know that the bus is arrivng my stop and to run to the bus stop to board the bus.. Journey there always end up with us sleeping in the bus or doing our last min of studying during exam period! But she always end up sleeping also.. hahaha.. On our way back, we always joke, chat on what happen in class and other issues.. This is also the time of our some little conversation on our different views.. Once, it was raining and PIE jam all the way.. 7 plus, we were still on the road.. Hungry, cold and wanting to pee, we decided to alight and have our dinner in Toa Payoh! end up with a good meal in Swensen.. Those were the fun days..
The one who inspire me to work harder for good grades is relocating to Hong Kong very soon.. Also only get to know today; was thinking if i do not happen to text him, will i only know when he is already in Hong Kong? Haha.. Someone who once sit next to me for a year plus, who study with me in the void deck during exam period, who do projects with me for most of the projects, who sit with me at the playground and chat till wee hours, who makes me so touched and grateful during my colleage years is leaving and yet i only know now.. As in not after he make decision but only when he is going away soon..
The one who i am with the same shift almost everytime during my attachment is no longer in frequent contact with me.. He is the one who encourage me so much during my hotel attachment, the one who we will deliberately make arrangement to smoke in smoking area (even we didn't arrange, we still meet), the one who everyone thought was my partner,the one that will make me take several MCs with and chat in East Coast till wee the one who console and accompany me during my lost love... The last time we met, we both feel awkard and distant with each other..
These were once so close people to me and yet even we do meet, we ask polite question like how have you been and so on... but we never really know what really happen in our individual life.. unlike before, we know each other inside out..
Is this the life that will bound to happen now that we reach adulthood? I miss them, really concern and sincere but someimes this is how life works and we do not have control over them... We each have our own life and work to move on.. Initially, we will still try our best to meet for catch up but as times goes by when we are all so busy for work, relationship and etc, we start to appear less for gathering and less concerns for the "friends" we once have.. In the end..... this is what happen.....
This claim seems so real but yet unreal as well? Does this claim act as a consolation to make us feel better for spending less time and effort to retain the friendship? This claim is a thin line in my heart..
The one who used to go to school with me everyday, relocate to Thailand to be with her boyfriend recently.. Got the news only when she was leaving; didn't manage to say goodbye to her.. Isn't it an irony? we were once so close and yet didn't even know that she is relocating.. 6 years ago, we take the same bus to school and back home as well.. Every morning, she will text me to let me know that the bus is arrivng my stop and to run to the bus stop to board the bus.. Journey there always end up with us sleeping in the bus or doing our last min of studying during exam period! But she always end up sleeping also.. hahaha.. On our way back, we always joke, chat on what happen in class and other issues.. This is also the time of our some little conversation on our different views.. Once, it was raining and PIE jam all the way.. 7 plus, we were still on the road.. Hungry, cold and wanting to pee, we decided to alight and have our dinner in Toa Payoh! end up with a good meal in Swensen.. Those were the fun days..
The one who inspire me to work harder for good grades is relocating to Hong Kong very soon.. Also only get to know today; was thinking if i do not happen to text him, will i only know when he is already in Hong Kong? Haha.. Someone who once sit next to me for a year plus, who study with me in the void deck during exam period, who do projects with me for most of the projects, who sit with me at the playground and chat till wee hours, who makes me so touched and grateful during my colleage years is leaving and yet i only know now.. As in not after he make decision but only when he is going away soon..
The one who i am with the same shift almost everytime during my attachment is no longer in frequent contact with me.. He is the one who encourage me so much during my hotel attachment, the one who we will deliberately make arrangement to smoke in smoking area (even we didn't arrange, we still meet), the one who everyone thought was my partner,the one that will make me take several MCs with and chat in East Coast till wee the one who console and accompany me during my lost love... The last time we met, we both feel awkard and distant with each other..
These were once so close people to me and yet even we do meet, we ask polite question like how have you been and so on... but we never really know what really happen in our individual life.. unlike before, we know each other inside out..
Is this the life that will bound to happen now that we reach adulthood? I miss them, really concern and sincere but someimes this is how life works and we do not have control over them... We each have our own life and work to move on.. Initially, we will still try our best to meet for catch up but as times goes by when we are all so busy for work, relationship and etc, we start to appear less for gathering and less concerns for the "friends" we once have.. In the end..... this is what happen.....
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Who is right and who is wrong? who know? only the person involve know..
I am a 'fan' to live 100% Entertainment show (Yu le Bai Fen Bai). Saw the first 10 min of Show (Xiao Zhu) explaining on the msn incident that happen to him via MSN... Out of curiousity, went on to see the forum replies and articles on this incident and thus prompt me to blog on this..
If it is the lady that prank on Show Luo (Xiao Zhu) then i should say artists are really very poor creatures. Using real heart to communicate via online and yet being play prank on.. Its like very normal things that happen on the street and yet because they are artists, the reaction became too extreme.
If it is Show Luo who deserve this, then i will pity the lady for being toy..
As outsider, it is really very hard to judge who is right and who is wrong.. Its a very emotional thing.. In addition, we would not know the whole lot of truth behind it.. isn't it? Anyway, if i were the girl, i definately will not do such things to disgrace myself.. Be it even if i am right.. After all the person that she mess with is an artist!
What i am trying to say here is that, alot of times when things happen, outsiders always jump to react but do they really know??
If it is the lady that prank on Show Luo (Xiao Zhu) then i should say artists are really very poor creatures. Using real heart to communicate via online and yet being play prank on.. Its like very normal things that happen on the street and yet because they are artists, the reaction became too extreme.
If it is Show Luo who deserve this, then i will pity the lady for being toy..
As outsider, it is really very hard to judge who is right and who is wrong.. Its a very emotional thing.. In addition, we would not know the whole lot of truth behind it.. isn't it? Anyway, if i were the girl, i definately will not do such things to disgrace myself.. Be it even if i am right.. After all the person that she mess with is an artist!
What i am trying to say here is that, alot of times when things happen, outsiders always jump to react but do they really know??